here we are again

sunday night.
I spent the day packing, and cleaning, and taking a very long nap.
tomorrow i'm finishing those things that need to be finished,
and buying the things that need to be bought.
it will be my last day in kona, for an un-determined amount of time.
then, tuesday morning, i'm on my way back to Haiti.

this night reminds me of our DTS graduation in march.
dark sky and bright cafe lights. i'm really not sure
how time can pass so quickly. and how we can end up
exactly where we started, only to start again.
which really makes me realize
how important it is to live for the day.
not to take them to seriously, but document those moments.
the reasons life is really that good.
this week I found myself at a cafe downtown, reading,
having a coffee and watching the rain, on the waterfront.
and on wednesday i'll be in haiti, killing mosquitos,eating beans and rice,
and taking many cold showers.
it's all about perspective.

the reason I can find joy in both of those things
is because i'm following God to these places,
the things I get to experience just because I'm willing to go.
sure, its not always easy, or perfect, or clean.
but it is definitely never dull.
so as I packed up today, and weighed my suitcase
I was gently reminded of that.
it isn't me alone, it really isn't me at all,
it's simply that I said yes, I'll go. send me.

"Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change"